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it’s supposed to be 0%. haha :D

December 2, 2008 · Filed under The Darkened Moments :c · Tagged , , , , , ,


You Are 32% Likely to Survive Another Great Depression


Your habits are pretty on par with the average person.

Unfortunately, this means your chances aren’t good in another Great Depression.

Start saving your money now. Living in debt isn’t doing you any favors.

Also figure out how to live a little more cheaply. Every little bit you can trim will help.

No. No, and NO.

I never ran out of days to hate. I’ve finally got over
my Thursday-Friday sickness, but now it’s Tuesday sickness goin my waaay.
I already had a bad morning but I tried to make up for
it and think of positive things, but in the end of the day everything just
backs off. Hahaha. Negative thoughts are showering me now.
I wish there was actually someone who won’t have
anything to say something about me unless she/he
really does know xD
I hate being me really, sometimes i want to vanish
in their eyes.
They keep telling me what i lack,
what i don’t do for them.
When i’m trying my best.
1 2 3.
Somebody make me evaporate.
(.- -_)
Oh well, i’ll probably hate tomorrow too.
i’ll probably sleep all day just to think that
there is something in life wherein
i can actually feel myself as me.
With no one saying
i lack attention for him, and i don’t do so much for him.
and no one saying i’m not effin studying, i would burst my brains cells out to you
just for them to shout to you.
awhile ago, i even hated
the way my boyfriend jokingly said
to my friends that it’s too bad he couldn’t seat somebody
to memorizes everything clearly.
Gaaaaaawwwwwwwwdnessssssssss.
Why don’t they just get rid of me if
they hate the way i am so much!
i hate this so much.
this is to my ever loving mom and boyfriend.
SAY whatever you want.
the hell do i care, someday you’ll feel bad
when you loose me. i effin hate you both.
there’s finally somewhere i can say
what i want. no one reads this anyway. nobody ever comforts me.
they are always asking for something, a help or so whatever.
it’s okay i don’t care.
nobody cares.

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November 25, 2008 · Filed under The Darkened Moments :c · Tagged , , ,

Sometimes, I feel as if no one really understands the way I am.

People always misunderstand me, my parents say I’m not really studying

and them my boyfriend says I’m studying too much.

What `d effin hell?!!

So all I want to do now is effin cry.

What do they want from me?

Why can’t they hear me out?

I wish I never had a heart.

I wish I died at this moment, like, NOW.

Cuz the feeling is killin` me deep :(

I wish for once there could be someone

who really appreciates me :(

..who’d cheer me up when I’m sad.

Cuz I don’t even have friends anymore, no friends, not a bestfriend.

I feel, like all my bestfriends left me with their own lives.

As for my friends, there’s no one I consider so close to me,

so I cannot tell anyone the way I feel.

There’s God :)

That guy, I wish I could be in His arms

rather that this feisty earth.

Where people just hurt themselves ..

I don’t know where I belong anymore.

I don’t know how to stop the tears anymore.

I don’t know my worth anymore.

I don’t know why i’m here anymore.

i wish my heart would stop breathing bleeding..

Cuz this is definitely killing me.

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